As wonderful and fun as a snow day sounds, this one was far from it. This morning started just fine till my mom and I were headed out the door to head for work. We decided to leave our dogs inside the house since it was wet and snowy out, not to mention REALLY cold. Well, unfortunately, two of our dogs bolted through the front door while the third I managed to keep from getting out.
Chasing the two that got out was far from fun. It was bitter cold and I kept getting snow inside my shoes. I finally caught our Shi Tzu, Li when he decided to stop and bark at our next-door neighbor's much larger dog. Blanco, the other dog that got loose was MUCH harder to catch. Several times my mom would say she was going to give up on chasing him and trying to get him home. I worried about if she really would a few times but I should know better by now to know she would likely never do that. We both became very frustrated by chasing him. He would often come very close to us, just out of our reach then bolt before e could grab him. We finally caught him after 45 min of chasing when we got in the van and drove slowly down our street with the side door open. We stopped near him and he jumped right in where I grabbed him then my mom got the door shut.
Once we got him fully secured in the house again we finally headed on to work. Now of course, I don't actually work there, I just say "we got to work" because I go with my mom to her work on Fridays. From the time we got there till lunch was pretty generic although I took a nap just before 12. My mom had come into the room to check on me and was afraid of me going to sleep as it was so close to 12 but it was only 1 at the time and I told her I usually do not sleep more than an hour when I nap, which is true as odd as it is. It is rare for me to sleep longer than nearly exactly one hour.
I ate my lunch I packed with me, some leftover salmon and some sausage biscuits, then we headed to the bank for something. Not sure what. I went inside with my mom as I didn't want to stay inside the van while she ran her errand. My mom didn't even think until we were inside about the elevator. She asked me if I would be okay with it and I said yes despite my great fear and dislike of them. Of course, my mom had forgotten another detail. The elevator has a glass wall. At this point I knew I was in for it. I grabbed the wooden handrail on the glass wall and held on tight while looking away. I immediately felt ill as soon as it started moving, especially since I found myself unable to not glance out the side.
We came to the second floor and I thought I might be okay, till I noticed that the pathway had glass paneling on the side with the dropoff. Even though I'm certain I was secure, I felt far from it. It didn't help the tile had lines and a cracked pattern on it which gave the illusion it could crumble any second. We arrived at one office only to find it was not the one we needed so we had to go back to the elevator. On the way back I tried to use logic to curb my fear, telling myself that the surface Iwas walking on was indeed solid and that I would not fall, I also kept from looking to the side with the glass paneling. This actually worked on the trip to the elevator, although this was ineffective after the trip up another floor.
The whole time I walked I was absolutely panicked though I kept walking but by the time I got to the room we needed to go to I was having a massive Vertigo problem and I felt dizzy and like I was tottering around like I could fall any second, I was even feeling very sick to my stomach now. I had to cling to a wall as I really felt I was going to fall even though I wasn't. I was perfectly fine once I got into the office area. The lady we talked to was very nice and expressed she had the same problem as I did and seemed relieved she was not the only one. Of course, I kinda felt the same way.
When we were done we headed back, this time I avoided looking to the side again and stared solely at the solid wall next to me and once I was in the elevator my mom told me not to look through the glass and seemed confused when I moved towards it but I told her I needed to hold onto the rail. Once I had she stood next to me so I was unable to see out. This helped incredibly and I thanked her for it as I was very appreciative of her doing that for me. She apologized for having put my through that and promised we would not do that again. From now on, I will wait in the van. I told her I think I would rather repeat our morning than go through what I just had again. Even now I still debate which incident was worse to me.
We got back to the office and I played on my comp awhile and dozed off on the pillow I had laying on the desk. I video-chatted a bit with my boyfriend, Tyler. He wanted to show me this robot he was working on at school. Some of his friends even waved hello to me or said some things which were mostly incoherent over the computer. IT wasn't long before I had to stop to clean, although he had to go at that time anyway. We got done cleaning pretty quickly then headed over to Delyana's(SP?) house to eat as she had invited us over. She made roasted chicken and it was so amazingly good. After I finished I debated a long time whether I should ask for some more but I never did. I only finally mentioned it when I was asked if I had wanted more. I was not very strong in my answer as I did want some but I did not want to be rude. After awhile of me being a weirdo with my responses about it I did get permission to have some more but my conscience would have nothing of it so I just stood around and waited for us to head on to group.
I was glad I did not get more chicken earlier as there was some pizza which I ate without ranch dressing much to my mom's shock and my great entertainment in her reaction. Group was very long for me tonight. We had a couple new members so we all had to introduce ourselves briefly. I hate doing this. I don't really know why, I guess it's mostly I do not like an entire group of people to suddenly have all their attention on me. It makes me uncomfortable. I didn't speak tonight really. I laughed when someone said something funny but otherwise I was quiet, often drifting into contemplating various things though I was primarily distracted by Stephanie's son, James. He's just so cute it's hard not to pay him attention. We started off with a lesson for the smaller portion of group but the larger portion was spent listening to one of our new members, Christy. She seemed very nice although obviously troubled. I will not get into the details here even though it is my blog. There's just some things that even I would not post in my own personal journal, even if no one else would read it but me.
I never realized till today that group is actually 2 hours long. How I didn't know that till today is beyond me but I guess it is usually so interesting that it feels more like just one hour. When we got home getting in the house was a pain. My sis went to bed and left the dogs inside which caused us much distress trying to get in the door without letting them out as we really didn't want a repeat of this morning, especially when it was too dark to see and just a cold. At first we didn't even know my sis was in till my mom finally got in and got the dogs at bay to let me in. This was when we learned she had gone to bed already. I really wish Leighanna had thought to be considerate and let the dogs out back before we got home.
I got to my room and tried turning on my light, being immediately reminded of my light having gone out that morning. I went to get a screwdriver and tried to replace the bulb, but I had to get the globe off and even with a step-ladder-stool thingy, I was still too short to do it so my mom had to help me. It took awhile as my mom got a call midway but it was okay as I was not in a huge rush. Besides, I was grateful my mom was willing to help me with that tonight as it was as she could have easily decided to wait till tomorrow to do it.
I sat in my mom's room and visited with her awhile before deciding Iwas really tired and wanted to go work on this post and finish other things on my computer, and now that I am nearly done with this post I am going to be heading to bed very soon now.
Goodnight!
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