For Starters

Well after talking to my mom tonight about various things, I decided that I wanted to start a blog to perhaps relieve the stress I have been going through due to recent events. I am by far not used to this much stress all at once and it's causing me to become so exhausted. All that has happened recently has happened so quickly it's been hard to wrap my head around it all.

My sister and dad have both left the household due to reasons I will not delve into. This fact has caused for me to get a change of rooms which my middle sister whom the room used to belong to, had agreed to. I had been expecting this for a long time but I guess part of me was still not expecting it to happen for a long time more or even ever, even in light of the current situation, for when my mom and I begun work on moving my stuff to my sister's old room I began to panic. Didn't help that we didn't have time to finish the day we started so neither room felt safe to me and I found it impossible to look at either room without feeling like I was having a panic attack. I know any of you whom may stumble across this may find this stupid or that I am being a whiny brat, but it is truly not that. The reason I felt that way is because I had been in that room for at least a couple years now and thus had become used to this environment, regardless of how annoying it could be at times, and for my comfort zone to be suddenly shredded to pieces was quite nerve-wracking. I've never handled change very well, even when I have been preparing for it mentally for a long time or I decide upon it my own self.

That aside, my mom was kind and allowed me to sleep with her in her room. Sure, call me a wimp, I don't care, being near her made me feel secure and I certainly needed it and I am willing to believe that she likely needed me there as much as I needed her. Since then all my belongings have been moved into my new room and although things are not yet tidy, I have gained a sense of security there.

Today was not very much fun. I spent most of it trying to complete tasks that I had placed on a "to-do-list" so I would not forget to do them as I have poor memory all-too-often often. Most of these tasks had to be completed by tomorrow. I started out waking at about 9:25 AM and even before getting breakfast I was working on fixing my sister's computer by 9:45 AM. I had recently pulled a stupid and formatted a drive with XP on it by my sister's instruction instead of doing as my mom told me and therefore I needed to reinstall XP on this computer as well as get the wireless Belkin internet adapter to work so my sister could get on the internet. Well, let's just say, the XP problem was quite easy to remedy, however it was the stupid internet adapter I spent most of my day fighting. Now the odd thing about this was that the Found New Hardware wizard kept wanting to search the INTERNET for drivers for the device... Uh.. Yeah.. If I could do that, I wouldn't have been trying to install the device in the first place.

Reluctantly, I did cart her computer into my mom's room where the router was and hard wired it to the internet so I could fetch these drivers. Well, of course, this solution only fixed the sound card and some PCI thing that had something wrong. I didn't pay much attention to it seeing as I went into the device manager and got it to install drivers for it and the sound card no problem. The stupid internet adapter couldn't be fixed in this way. Oh no. Of course not.

I never did fix the one she had and eventually had to let her borrow mine. (Luckily I have a laptop that has wifi so I'm not without internet, obviously, else I couldn't be writing this now could I?) I don't get mine back until I can see if my boyfriend can find the drivers for her device. Such a pain. Reason he has to do this is he knows alot more about computers than I do and he can find them as he did last time and he can find them a-lot quicker than I ever could. Not to mention the installation CD for her device is missing and for some odd reason the CD for mine won't work with hers even though they are THE SAME KIND OF DEVICE. Both are Belkin wireless G network adapters. And for the record, the CD worked perfectly flawlessly with my device when installing it on my desktop computer on the very same day as it would not work with her device.

Honestly, I love working on computers and such, but I absolutely have pure contempt for my sister's computer. It used to be my dad's and I combined his comp with hers (because he gave his to her) but the machine still hates me. I'll be glad when I never have to mess with it again. I think the thing is pure evil. >.>'''

Of course, in the midst of doing all this, I also had to remove the shelf that was in my room that belonged to my sister. It was the only object of hers I was using. Apparently she didn't like me using it and therefore demanded she wanted it. So yeah, you can guess what happened then. I had to remove all my dragon figurines from the shelf and cart it out of my room. Luckily this was easy as the shelf is light but getting to it wasn't fun due to all the unsorted items scattered all over my room. I also took the liberty of taking all her stuffed animals down from the "pet net" on the wall just in case she wanted to take those as well. I really didn't want to have to deal with her suddenly deciding she wanted them and then everyone trying to be in that corner to take them down. This way, she can take them and it's no extra stress on me.

I did finally get to relax some and eat dinner but that was interrupted by my sister (Not the one who left whom is my middle sister. This is my youngest sister I'm talking about.) told me that my dad was calling her because he called my phone and got no answer. Well, I had forgotten my phone in my room since I got up to get food. He never told my sister why he called for me, he just hung up and proceeded to call my mom to get a hold of me. This made me assume it was something urgent. He never left me a voice-mail about it, neither did he tell my mom or my sister why he called so I was forced to call him back. Turns out, it was NOTHING IMPORTANT. He only called me to know if I had gotten a stupid invite on FACEBOOK.. Seriously? Why couldn't he have just told my sister or my mom that? And why the heck is it that he ONLY calls me when it concerns unimportant things like Facebook and the games on that site? It's never to tell me he still loves me or to see how I'm doing no, no.. It's only to ask what I want him to send me on Farmville or if I got his invite. He doesn't need to call me for such things. Seriously. Who cares? If I get his invite I'll get it. If I don't I don't. It's not the end of the world if I don't. This is starting to get on my nerves and it makes me tempted to actually ignore his calls on purpose and not call back unless he leaves me a voice-mail with a message of importance behind it.

Up till now I had mostly forgotten about making some caramel candies for my middle sister for her birthday tomorrow. Really, I guess I didn't forget as much as I was postponing it till I got other things done. See I got a cookbook for Christmas and we saw a recipe for caramel in it. My middle sister loves caramel and so I promised I would make her some for her birthday. After all the previous things mentioned, I got my cookbook and I started to get to work on it. I even mentioned aloud that I was going to start when my mom called to me asking if I felt tired. Well I wasn't at the time so I told her that I wasn't and asked why she asked.

She wanted me to help her drag in my old bed so she could sleep on that seeing as my middle sister has demanded her bed which is what my mom is currently sleeping on. Again, I think she only wants it because my mom is making use of it and she doesn't like that. A little irritated I ran to put away my cookbook but my mom told me I could go ahead and do what I was doing. Wanting to be helpful to her I refused and insisted I help her to drag in the bed. This did tick her off a bit as I was being difficult but she agreed anyway. Well this ended up not happening. We got the bed ex far and I ended up getting one of my fingers pinched badly by a metal box to the point of bleeding although not much. The bed is far too dirty to bring inside and we were both too tired to clean it so we left it for my dad to bring in as he said he would.

That being out of the way, I did go back to trying to make some caramel candies and my mom offered to help me out. Unfortunately/fortunately we couldn't make it as we do not have a candy thermometer. Unfortunately, because it means it is still something I need to do and I cannot have this done on her birthday for her. Fortunately, because it means I didn't have to do it tonight, plus the fact I realized we needed a candy thermometer BEFORE we got things cooking. At least now I have a legit reason why I didn't do it on time.

I am so glad to be relaxing right now. This blog thing seems to be helping me to release some stress, though I think chilling at my comp is helping too. I do believe I will keep at it. At least until I fall out of the habit or I just become so boring again that I have nothing interesting to post. This definitely ended up much longer than I had expected. If anyone IS reading this, then.. Um.. Yeah. Thanks for reading? :p