Feeling A Bit Off

Okay so maybe it's more like a lot off and the way today started would really not lead you to believe it. Today was normal aside from me not playing my Wii. That's right. I DIDN'T play my Wii. I took a break today. I figured since it's Wednesday, that meaning my mom and sis would be home late, then it would be a good idea to get some things done around my room such as finishing tidying it up from my move. I probably would have finished today except later in the day I began to feel a bit sick to my stomach so I rested a bit on my bed. Didn't help though and I don't remember when I got over it.

I was so mad at myself today. I went to put my dragon poster back on my wall and to do so I decided to stand on my art trunk. Normally, this is fine. The trunk is plenty strong enough for me to stand on. That wasn't the problem. The problem was me not realizing the objects around it when I moved it into position and I ended up mangling the corner of a poster of forest scenery that I loved. I know I only paid a dollar for it but it made me angry. After that my dragon poster tore near the bottom just a little and after that the trunk pressed against, and cracked the glass on my cheetah poster. Uggh.. It just makes me sick. I keep breaking things today, mostly my own things. By accident, all of them I assure you.

Around 6 my mom called me. She hasn't been feeling good today, I feel bad for her. I hope she feels better soon. I can not recall much of what she called to tell me, but I do remember her telling me that, Stephanie, one of my friends, said she misses me and can not wait till Friday when I go to our Friday meeting thing. I didn't go last week as I was too sick with allergies to do anything. Oddly enough, my mom also said she too thinks I'm a genius. Of course, I take that with a grain of salt really because the two people who say I'm a genius are her and her mother, not to mention their friends of mine, so it really doesn't count when people who like you say something like that. Friend's are almost always willing to compliment their friends, regardless of where the truth lies. New don't get me wrong, I think it is very nice that they think that, I just do not believe it to be true. My mom thinks it is, but she's my mom, of course she's going to think I'm smart. I know otherwise. I'm not completely ignorant but I'm far from a genius.

Honestly, for some reason when someone calls me a genius, I hardly take it as a compliment. I don't take it as an insult either but rather, I generally ignore it then become depressed by it as I know it's not true though I sure wish it was.

Had to cook supper tonight. Really I shouldn't say "had to" I love to cook and really don't mind it one bit. Especially when it is a big help to my mom. Instead of cooking Shrimp Scampi as had been our usual meal for Wednesday night, I cooked some Salmon fillets. I used alot of the same ingredients as in the shrimp dish as that's pretty much all I had to use aside from dry spices. I did use some curry but not much. I felt fine cooking until my ingredients burned in the pan before I got the fish in. It's really odd too. Those ingredients never burn on me when doing the Shrimp Scampi, and it was on really low heat. I restarted after scraping the burnt bits into the trash but I felt really off after this. Everything I did that I knew would be fine to do for the dish just made me felt like I was being unintelligent. Perhaps part of that feeling is from earlier when I had tried to open the oven and the freaking handle broke off... After that I felt very freaked out. I thought my mom would be mad at me for it but she wasn't. I know it wasn't "my fault" but it still happened when I opened the oven. But I guess it could have happened to any of us, it just figures these things happen to me.

Eh, perhaps tomorrow will bring a brighter day. I think I'll hook up my Wii in my room and play it a little before bed then see about falling asleep to watching a movie. I've always wanted to do that for such a long time and never have. Not really sure why. Guess it's from the few friends I have had throughout my life saying something about doing so and it sounded like fun but I've really not had the set-up to do so.

For a year or two I've had a TV in my room, but of course it was always in an inconvenient place in relation to my bed so I couldn't really watch it from my bed, and before that the only televisions were in my parents room, my sister's room, or the living room.

I think I should go now. Before something else goes wrong by my own fault.